alone in the world

I still have a crush on you. Is it love? I don't know and don't wanna find out... Better not know since you don't feel the same. When we're together you like me a lot and treat me like i'm special, unique, the one, the only... When we're not you forget to remember I exist. If it's saturday night i'm your first date choice, yet that's all. And I love our dates, our talks, our hanging out...even love having sex. But I need to make things clear in my mind... I can't fall in love with the idea of being in love with you or we wont be able to be friends. We both know you'll breake my heart once more if i let my crush on you grow any bigger... I have to understand I have to be alone or to find someone else... But i've had so many boyfriends I no longer belive i'll find someone right for me. So: for now, alone...